I understand so much of what you're saying right now. I fully support you. I was ashamed today and didn't want the bipolar folks to know how bad I'm really doing so I wrote one post on feeling utterly alone in some random forum and then another about being so sad I could cry.

You always have such good advise and I always look forward to reading your posts. You make a big contribution here and with your family and at work to I'm quite certain. If there's anything I can say or do to help you feel better let me know. I'm here if you need to talk. I'm sorry you're having such a tough time and I hope you feel better soon. You truly aren't alone.