It sounds like you are suffering from depression. I am sorry to hear your mom is making things worse for you, instead of helping. It sounds like you have been caught in a trap of feeling worthless and immobilized, probably from your mom controlling all the details, as you describe.

As we get older, it becomes harder to find a friend. Sometimes they will fall in your lap, sometimes you will search one out and won't always succeed. And that is not your fault, people are different and don't always click.

When I was in college, I didn't have any friends and stayed in my room all the time like you describe. The first and only real friend I made I met online using the college message boards. They were very kind and seemed interested in me as a person, and then we met at a party organized over the message board. We may not have expressed particular hobbies, but we found things to do together and that became our hobbies. We went to trivia nights in bars, learned to play an instrument together after my friend got one as a gift, went to political protests, watched tv shows and cooked together, we went on walks and talked, explored the city. We shared our darkest hurts, and he was in a lot of pain. I was too, and we healed just by being there for each other.

All this happened without much planning, and didn't cost money; we were both broke, but open to new things and open to each other. This is what a I hope you can find, too. It was one on 20 attempts to make a friend, but that one made the other failures worth it.

With whatever means you have, reach out (as you are doing now). It doesn't need to be conventional. You don't need to define your interests. You had plenty to say right here, and we are hearing you. The more you show who you are, the better the chance that you will attract someone who can be your friend. And that will help you deal with the pressure you are under with your family.

It is hard to feel alone and stuck. It doesn't go away easily, but please don't give up.