Hi there, Jennifer and coolbeans82, you have us. Write in, say what you must. Share, don't share. Put on a tantrum. Whatever. It's OK. We're here for you. You're safe here. Every moment you hang on, you're growing stronger.

I've been inspecting my own depression and there are lots of things I do that make it worse:
Blame - I blame myself and I blame others.
Anger - I get angry that it's happening to me and that I can't seem to deal with it
Frustration - because I can't seem to make it go away
Fear - I am actually afraid of the next time it might happen again
Disgust - how can people be so mean
Anxiety - I worry and worry and worry
Tension - I can sleep, my stomach is in a knot
Sad - I feel so alone, that no one cares

And every one of these thoughts make it worse. So, I'm trying to calm myself down and focus only on the moment. When I do that, it's not so bad. I can just stay in the present and let time pass by. I try to distract my thoughts too. I mean, it's alright to feel bad, but I don't want to make it worse than it already is. I like 50s and 60s music. They're so innocent and cheerful. Like the Beatles. And maybe have a Smartie. Read a book. Watch a movie. Have a cup of tea. Anything.