Hey, everyone

Look I know that I'm not the only one experiencing problems with my therapist; I mean there's a whole forum here just for talking about issues in therapy. However, something came up in my therapy that really ****ed me up, and I would greatly appreciate any advice/help/support. I don't mean to sound needy or attention-seeking, and if you think that, that's your opinion and I can't do anything about it.

I've posted a lot on here about how hard termination was with my former university therapist, but things have recently took a turn for the worst.

So, I posted on here a couple of days asking about emailing her for closure, and I eventually did so. However, she seemingly ignored my email; I emailed her on Thursday, and she hadn't emailed me since.

So today, I had group therapy with her and the rest of group. I was feeling so mad/betrayed/hurt about her basically ignoring my email and acting like everything that I'd told her had meant nothing.

I told the group about this experience, but I "disguised" her by talking about a boy who didn't text me back. I was so mad/upset that I cried, and swore a bit. I think she knew I was talking about her. After group, I was so pissed that when everyone left, I just told her that it was basically her. It was a **** move, and pretty wimpy, but I wanted to let her know how much she had hurt me.

So she told me that she hadn't received my email until today, and I felt like such an ***. I apologized, even though I wasn't sorry, and left still pissed. She later replied telling me that she couldn't email me because it was bad for "my emotions", but I should bring up my problem in group. Such ********.

Maybe I have no right to be mad at her, but I really hate her. She knows that I have a really hard time trusting people, and she basically destroyed my trust in her. I don't think I'll ever be able to see her in the same way again. Even worse, I probably made one of the few people I trust hate me or think I'm a freak.

So what to do? Any advice or whatnot?