well...

it'll be a year since my last attempted suicide sometime this month. i'm not saying when..i dont give dates of these things...i'd rather forget them myself.

( i say "last" because there were aprox 7 in total. )

but things are different this time round..


i have PC..

i have friends here that i couldnt have dreamt of a year ago....

i've found good emotion again. still feel the bad.. but i can feel more than i could last time..

i still self harm..not nearly as much as before...i'm harder to trigger now...i've some self control that i didnt have a year ago.. and i no longer OD..

i'm slowly improving with my anger management.. ( i wont say what happened yesterday but it was a very good example that i've a long way to go...)

i no longer have a BMI of 16..its 19.4 right now and i just gotta work on eating healthier..but i am eating..

there are other things too..good and bad...

things are very far from perfect...but i'm alive..

so....i wanted to thank PC...everyone here....even if you've never replied to me.....i'm alive because of you.