Coolbeans, there are some people here really trying to communicate with you and be kind to you. Can you assume their intentions are positive and to be supportive of you rather than push them away? Everyone here has their own struggles and people are generally really supportive and mean the best even if in your eyes you aren't getting what you think you are asking for. Sometimes it takes awhile to figure out how to best support a new poster, but it isn't for lack of effort and certainly not because people here mean you harm.