I was supposed to have an appointment with a PA yesterday at my pdoc office but I couldn't force myself out of the house so I r/s for Friday, I have therapy today but I can't see myself leaving the house again today. I just feel so trapped by myself. And I know I am doing to myself, but I can't seem to 'talk myself into it'. It's like the manic agitation and paranoia is suffocating and strangling me. I don't know what my fear is.. or if it is even considered a fear. It's like I just can't leave. I wonder if my therapist would talk to me over the phone but I seriously am not trying to go inpatient and I kind of feel like that is what they would try to do. It is just trying to hold on for the ride until it's over. Anyone got any tips for severe agitation?