Yeah, so I just saw on our visits list that we send out every week that she's meeting with one of my clients, which kind of bothers me, but also the client is a board member so whatever. So anyhow, I emailed her and said I saw the visit on our shared visit schedule, and if she needs anything, materials whatever, to take with her on the visit, just to let me know and I'm happy to prepare them.

Even though it was just a benign offer, I'm sure she'll twist it into me "doing her job" or worrying about things that aren't for me to worry about, even though it has to do with sponsorship, which I'm the director of, and she is actually specifically my client.

I don't know why she wouldn't have even talked to me when she set up the meeting, at least to let me know. I'm swamped and happy to have the help, but I need to know if she's taking over one of my clients so I don't do anything out of sync with her.

I just don't even know like what I'm allowed to say to anyone anymore, in person or in email. She finds fault with everything I do and say.

I have never had this problem before. It feels hostile and harassing.

Like claiming that I insulted a coworker when the message was so benign "I'd love to help you with that" how is that insulting? People say that to me all the time and I either accept the help or say I've got it covered. Why is offering to help an insult? I thought we were a team?

She's condescending and rude. And doesn't respect that anyone else in the office has lengthy experience working in the field. She literally thinks she's better than everyone else.

And I have nowhere to go...at least for now...so I have to figure out how to deal with it.

I wouldn't even be at work today, because I am so agitated and anxious, feeling like I'm going to vomit or hyperventilate because of having to be in the same building as her and the way she treats me totally triggers my PTSD. So it's re-activating my agoraphobia that I had conquered when I came back to work 18 months ago.

I literally feel unsafe here.

I feel like I'm going to cry at my desk right now. At first I was happy to have her giving direction to me, etc., but then she became just a total jerk to me and rude and condescending. I don't think she understands what my role has been and is currently here. And I know she wants to change that, but I can't read her mind on how she wants to adjust my job responsibilities.

I have such high hopes every day, and get excited about new projects at work, and then she sucks every positive emotion out of me.

I actually bawled for hours last night because of what my disability is doing to me and because of how I'm being treated because of it, when what I've asked for in the way of accommodations is so simple.

Okay, I don't know how to end this...I've got to get back to the grindstone and meet my deadlines.

Thanks,
Seesaw