Eskielover,

"It's NOT EASY....but anything good is worth waiting for & will work out when the time is right, keeping an analytical eye open along the way for possible need for change in plans. I am finally getting my horse here this summer. Worth the wait."

I keep this in mind too. I'm thinking that I've been in the US for a year now. Leaving home was hard and I may be strong enough to manage a long-distance relationship even if it's as hard as leaving my home. It is still worth it.

Relationships are unpredictable. I might end up leaving him or vice versa. He may find a way to be together sooner or often. We may find a solution. I don't know. As for right now, I'm trying to accept this grief by taking time to express my sadness and frustration in a healthy way. I'm trying not to sabotage myself or my relationship — as I'm pretty good at self-sabotage.