It sounds like you can't see outside this bubble at the moment. I took my daughter to the eye dr today (productive) but I also let my younger son stay home from school and we had Wendy's for lunch. (WAY unproductive!) And btw, I wish someone would prescribe me gabapentin! I have nothing when I get anxious. I'm also overweight and have been skipping the gym recently. Ugh. Must go tomorrow. So no, this won't be your life forever.