I found out my depression is genetic and I'll have to take my medication forever.
I felt better and was talking to the doctor about the possibility of coming off medication and he told me that my depression would come back.

I realized he's right and even with medication i still have sad moments. I'm having one today. Not from what he said because that was weeks ago, but sometimes I get sad and that's okay. I'll feel better tomorrow.

With triggers, I try to ignore them because eventually I'll feel better. I do know to not harm myself ever again, but sometimes I feel like dying.