Hi Siri. Welcome to Psych Central. I am sorry you are unsure about your diagnosis. Bipolar is not one diagnosis because there are different flavors and variations.

Here are some articles that might be of interest
https://psychcentral.com/disorders/b...olar-disorder/

https://psychcentral.com/disorders/h...sode-symptoms/

https://psychcentral.com/disorders/manic-episode/

https://psychcentral.com/disorders/bipolar/

I have a friend with Bipolar Disorder. Feel free to respond to this post and or send a private message.