Hi Lost!

i can identify with most of all you've said..

havent cooped myself up for days at a time like that, like some others have... work always kept me out and around.. in hindsight, that was a good thing, though painful to bear at times...

had to keep reaching out... birthdays, holidays, funerals... and the distances i felt from others kept me trying...

if you feel disconnected and dissociated, definately, seek therapy...

therapy can come in a variety of forms, so explore...