My Support Forums - View Single Post - Dear T: I need to tell you something....Part XXIV

LostOnTheTrail · Jun 01, 2017, 02:50 AM

Hi R,

I braved the cinema again on Tuesday night, with a friend and a family member. We'd planned months ago to go and see The Shack, an adaptation of one of my favourite books.

Possible trigger:

After suffering a family tragedy, Mack Phillips spirals into a deep depression that causes him to question his innermost beliefs. Facing a crisis of faith, he receives a mysterious letter urging him to an abandoned shack in the Oregon wilderness. Despite his doubts, Mack journeys to the shack and encounters an enigmatic trio of strangers led by a woman named Papa. Through this meeting, Mack finds important truths that will transform his understanding of his tragedy and change his life forever.

When I first read it in 2011, it helped me. Now everything's done a 180. I sat through the first half of the film thinking 'Who the hell am I holding it together for?' I still don't know the answer to that one.

I'd warned my friend that I would probably cry, but still didn't expect it to actually happen. Towards the end of the film, there was a scene and a song which finally undid me. I cried, I wept, I sobbed...my friend grabbed my hand as soon as she heard me dissolve.

We got home, and the family member started on 'It's in the past, and the past cannot be changed...' To say that it's in the past is to misunderstand my current situation. You and I need to have the conversation about the medical details to lay that to rest. Please don't let me walk away from that.

See you on Thursday, I hope.