I don't know why, but I can't seem to shake this sense that my boyfriend will inevitably break up with me. I'm just waiting for him to eventually say "It's not working out" or something like that.
I guess this sense of insecurity goes down really deep because I'm in the mindset that everyone eventually leaves, or goes away for some reason or another. Nothing is ever going to be permanent. There will always be disappointment from everyone in your life.
I've been disappointed by everyone so far, what's to say it will change for the better? How will I know?
I'm trying my best to just be myself and not let this feeling dominate my moods and resonate from within me to a point where he can perceive it. I really like him and find myself falling more and more for him every day. I think about him all the time and reminisce over the time we've spent together and I don't want it to end, not now, not ever.
I'm the kind of person who is so afraid of being hurt, of someone leaving them that I desperately cling to whomever it is I care most about just to keep them as close as possible. I know this sort of behavior oftentimes backfires and drives the person further away and I wind up hurt, but I don't know how else to act.
What is a girl like me to do?
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