It seems that everywhere in life there will always be bullies, and that these bullies will always win. It also seems like it's my lot in life to attract bullies to me and for them to enact their bullying ways upon me. I don't understand why. It's happened all my life.

What's worse is when folks gaslight me by saying that I'm not bullied and that it's all in my head. That I've got some skewed perception on life. Or maybe that I'm just saying it as a way to be the center of attention or something. It's happened to me a lot, and even on here a fair amount of times.

I just don't know what to do anymore. What can I do? I feel so utterly like the odds are stacked against me that I don't even want to fight anymore. It's too much of an uphill battle. I just can't muster the strength anymore. I'm just too god damn tired. I can't....I just can't anymore....