OP... i totally relate to this, I've been this way as long as I can remember. I am planning to talk about it in therapy soon. I hate this but it seems just natural reaction for me now. This is why I struggle with the IDEA of getting attached to my therapist, because I KNOW at some point it ends... and then I fear I'd be in a bad place....

I have a best friend out of state and while I trust her more than anyone else, I still live this mindset, I mean I figure, everyone else has got tired me of, why hasn't she? so many times I'll over analyze things like our texts or whatever.... and if I see her making lots of plans with mututal friends on FB, i think, well it must be because she is sick of me. It is very annoying so I can relate to this so much

However, good on you for at least dating, I've never been on a date in my life I hope somehow you find what you want with this and just so you know, "healthy" people can be in therapy. I have no issues outside of mental health and I go