Hello,
I originally posted a similar thread in the dissociative forum, as I was unaware of this forum

I am seriously considering voluntarily admitting m ysel to the hospital. This is my worst fear. My T has been wonderful, she understands going to the hospital is my worst fear, as my Mother has been in and out of them.

She knows I have a plan, and we have discussed me going to the hospital. We have also discussed early on that i felt it would destroy me to be involuntarily committed. I promised her 2 Weeks, where I would not do anything. The two weeks end on the 8th.....

My DX is D.I.D, normally I have a part of myself that sole purpose is to keep me alive. However that safety net I have built I to my system, will not work this time. Part if me told on myself.. (no wonder I think I am crazy).
This is the Mud before the lotus, that I am in right now, but I see no way out of the mud....

Can anyone tell me about their experiences, is it good or bad? I believe you have more rights if you voluntarily commit than if you are committed.

I am terrified to go, but at the same time if I don't go voluntarily, I may end up being committed.

My other choice is after the 8th, I promised I would continue to see her until then..... I tell her all is well, not see her any longer and complete my plan..

Just asking, what is your experience, was it better or worse afterwards? This frightens me....more than death...