I hear you, sometimes I have such a bad day and I have no idea why. It can take a long time for me to figure it out too. And if I happen to get to a point where I can articulate it, people tend to make remarks like "well, if you know that then just don't allow it to bother you". It's so hard to explain how that's not what I am doing.

One of the things I have noticed "now" is that when someone triggers me a certain way I get lots of flashes showing me all the things in my past that "hurt" me the same way.

What helped me alot in that article I posted was what happened in all these flashes that come forward is my brain slowly recognizing all the things that the hypocampus did not register at the time. Yet, my amygdala still held on to the emotional distress.

One of my therapists tried to explain to me how our brain stores events in different areas, some of which don't have language which makes it hard to articulate all that is stored when a trauma is experienced.

One of the things that I have a very deep exaggerated startle response to is doors. I have a lot of trauma that involve hiding behind doors, running through doors, doors slamming even my car door, getting shoved up against doors by someone trying to molest me. Something "bad" suddenly appearing at the door and coming at me in such a negative threatening way.

When I experienced the post traumatic stress breakdown and was taken to a psych ward I never got any sleep and I was so exhausted. But every 10 to 15 minutes they kept opening the door to check on me and I would immediately wake up with a startle. I left that place more EXHAUSTED than when I went in.