This seems to be your first post so welcome. You had such a lovely time with your sister that one incident is not going to take away from that. If you need to....apologize to your sister (I'm sure you already have) and offer to buy her new mattresses. Be honest with her, that since you've been with her you've been happier than you've been in a long time. Please post back and let me know how it goes. I care and I'm here if you need to talk. I know what it's like to contemplate suicide. Don't think that way. You have value, you are worth it. Thinking of you.