This has been going on for decades....I thought I was doing right by keeping the peace and keeping things together for the kids sake. I know I haven't done them any favours.
He has verbally and emotionally disrespected me all our marriage too.....I just kept hanging on to the good times and moving on and brushing the bad times under the carpet,
I can't do that any more. I can't even talk to him about how I am feeling cuz he ll just shut me down again