I've been admitted 5 times, all voluntary. I've had good experiences. I was TERRIFIED before I ever went and did anything I had to do to avoid it. But eventually I had to be hospitalized for a med change and while I cried the first several hours I was there it was actually relief to be somewhere safe. Every time I've been admitted I've felt the same wave of safety as soon as I get to my room. At this point I know that I probably will be admitted again at some point and I'm fine with that. I know that in the hospital I feel safe and it helps so much to know that someone else is responsible for everything, I just have to go to groups, talk to the doctor and rest. The hospital has become a safe place for me.

I think it sounds like you need to be admitted. It is always better to do so voluntarily and if you do it now you save yourself a week of suffering.

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