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Originally Posted by scatterbrained04
I hear what you're saying. Much like you, I've always been able to make myself function even during very severe depression. This episode I'm in now, I make it to work but spend my evenings and weekends in bed or on the couch. I've been trying to "will" myself into functioning for 2 months.
Anyways, I'm certain that the way depression feels changes episode to episode. Different make up of symptoms each time. Lethargy must be prominent in your current episode. Be gentle with yourself. It is not your fault. All you can do is keep trying.
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What really kills me is I had my first job since when I did keep kids and I lost it. Apparently it doesn't go over very well when you act strangely at work. Fortunately, when I kept the kids, the bizarre behavior extended to hyper-religiosity and since I, and the parents of the kids I kept, were also Christians, it just looked like I was super spiritual (a positive it seems
). As a matter of fact, I was super spiritual. I was a prophet of sorts (or so I believed). It was so dangerous for me to keep those kids while unchecked but few people knew what to look for and those that did were in denial. Funny how life changes. I hate this illness!