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Originally Posted by Open Eyes
One of the things I have noticed "now" is that when someone triggers me a certain way I get lots of flashes showing me all the things in my past that "hurt" me the same way.
One of the things that I have a very deep exaggerated startle response to is doors. I have a lot of trauma that involve hiding behind doors, running through doors, doors slamming even my car door, getting shoved up against doors by someone trying to molest me. Something "bad" suddenly appearing at the door and coming at me in such a negative threatening way.
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Originally Posted by it'sgrowtime
Like open eyes, I notice how a present day thought/feeling will open up flashes of memories that have the same theme...it's like a scroll unrolling. It's so fragmented, the pieces are so small and incomplete, I do feel like im trying to put together a puzzle...it's a game I'm really tired of. Also like open eyes, I have so many doorway images. It's eerie how that's the same for us, and I felt like I was reading my own writing when I was reading that of yours. I've wondered if its metaphor at times, besides being actual memories of doorways.
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I don't get flashes or fragments of memories anymore like I used to before going through trauma therapy.I remember all my traumas now and when I've been triggered I start thinking about all of them and get so upset,which is one of the main things that makes me spiral downward so easily.
I also have an exaggerated startle response to doors.It's embarrassing more than anything else.If someone knocks on my door or rings the bell,even if I know who it is,I jump and yelp when I open the door for them.I don't think that will ever go away for me.