I'm a beautiful person on the outside and people love me however...
I'm a loner
Withdrawn
Haven't dated in years
And the few times I did I wouldn't stay long before leaving
I'd always just stop talking to these girls
And I'd feel guilty for doing that but I don't know i just can't figure myself out.

I really clicked well with this one girl from years ago but she still likes me, always has and I've always like her. We've have so much on common it's weird for us not to be together.

Basically I just want a medication that will make me want to work like a normal person, not stay up all night and sleep all day, feeling like a complete waste of gloyous potential. Living to feel altered is no way to live.

I fear everyday in my isolated prison having the potential to spend every precious moment with her. We already talked about having kids. I need to print this for my therapist ha
But I really am suffering and torment from not doing the right thing. And to do nothing with my great opportunities shames not only me but my family.

I don't want to keep going to sleep with being haunted by my fear and insecurity is filling my mind. I hate my mindset and perspective most of the time.

I need her to fulfill my purpose. If I let this opportunity slip my by I will be traumatized. I want to live ...plz ...there is nothing in my way...make my mind well pray for me if you believe it will help

Thanks goodnight