Well last night, the kids wanted me to come over to read them a bedtime story, so I went to her house and read them a story. Upon completion of the story, I didn't say anything to her, put my shoes on and left. About 25 seconds later as I am going to my car (She lives in apartments) I receive a text from her saying "You didn't have to leave". I responded back saying that I came over to read my children a story, butbyou didn't mention anything about me staying. I asked if she would like me to come back in and she responded "Do Whatever" so I eventually went back in. We watched TV and then we talked about things but she still is lying to me about details and things I already know that are true. I told her if she feels that she needed to lie or wants to live a single life, she can, just not on my watch. I reiterated that I am looking for a committed marriage and not just a part time wife. She actually gaveended up giving me a semi hug, which felt good since that was the first time I touched her in a year. Then her defense went back up and she started being sarcastic about things. She mentioned that we could move back in together but she wanted her own room....like who says that??? So I ended up staying there till about 2am. I tried to get close to her, even asked if I could lay next to her and she still refuses to even do that. I just don't know what is going through her mind. She told me earlier in the day to just let go of past issues but yet she brings them up. Then she says sarcastic things about the guy she was hanging out with like "Oh yeah, I slept with him and done this and that ect" cause she said that all I ever talked about. All I wanted was real honest answers. I don't think I will ever get them. She's sending me mixed signals as she enjoys being married because it benefits her but yet she isn't really trying to be with me affectionately. She still keeps me at a distance. It's just not healthy. You wouldn't think that we where even married

I'm just as lost as ever. I'm coming to the realization that it's never going to be like we where once was. I know I am going to be the one to end it as there is no way she is going to. She is living comfortably receiving money and support from me without actually having to be a wife. She is cake eating as far as doing that to me and living a separate life. Marriage isn't about that. She said before she didn't want to live under me and I never said she had to. All I wanted was love and respect to rebuild our marriage. It's touch when you have children involved. I don't know if she is doing all of this cause she is hurt or if she is just using me.