Dear T,
I'm feeling progressively more upset with you the more I think about some of what you said Wednesday. I'm feeling invalidated and pathologized. And also worried about what you and MC will talk about. I suspect you'll be in there saying how you're worried about me and think I'm a mess of obsessive thinking and anxiety, and he'll say how he thinks I'm generally doing OK and that I'm just doing some difficult work. Just based on what you've each said to me in the past when I was struggling. I suspect the truth is somewhere in the middle.

But I doubt I'd be as concerned if I felt better about how my session with you went. Part of why I sent you that e-mail is to show how I am functioning--signing up for and going to the yoga class, talking to H about what's going on...OK, maybe sending that brief text to MC could have been seen as needy/dysfunctional, at least by you, but his response calmed me and made me feel better about what had been said in the last session with him. Sure, yeah, I could have reached out to you instead, but, based on how Wednesday's session went, you probably would have just made me feel worse.

Maybe you're the one I really need to walk away from. Because you're not so much helping me find solutions on how to deal with the MC stuff, but just making me feel worse about myself because of it. And I don't think a therapist should be making me feel worse about myself... It's one thing to make me look at my thought patterns and actions and see how they're contributing and consider how I could change them. But you mostly just made me feel like I'm more messed up than even I thought I was. And invalidated what I thought were some insights about myself and my childhood. And I don't see how those things are helpful or therapeutic...

LT