Lately, I have been feeling very contented/happy spending time with my husband. It is a blessing to have someone who you enjoy doing activities with everyday. I love him and am committed to taking care of him until death do us part. I have always felt safer with him--he is very protective of me. He sometimes compensates for many of my weaknesses. I also like the benefits. It has not always been this way. I had to let go of some of my expectations. For example, he has been unemployed for a year, so it is not the love of money that binds us (though I can't afford to divorce him either). There were many reasons I attempted including a chemical imbalance but I also was angry at him for some things and turned that anger inward. We are nearing our 30th anniversary and some of the things I was upset about had occurred years before my attempt but because I was afraid to fully express how I felt, it became a huge shadow other my feelings for him. We've really talked about it. The disagreements were about him having a different POV--not abuse. Also, we both can be bossy. It has taken a lot of self reflection for me to figure this out. So I do believe relationships are a source of happiness/contentment but it takes work to keep it going. It will not be that good if you are on autopilot or afraid to express your feelings. I hope others at PC can find someone special to be with.