Ok....I really dread my anxiety disorder. Nobody needs to feel sorry for me...it just helps me to get it off my chest. I get this paralyzing anxiety before every vacation and every holiday...really before any big change. I hate this with a passion. I work on it in therapy, I use my coping techniques and yet it remains. I am so paralyzed I can't get off the recliner and I'm leaving tomorrow and I have to get my driver's license renewed. It might as well be traveling to the moon for as capable as I feel. Anyway thanks for letting me get some of it out. It's an added pressure on my daughter and that's not fair to her. I wish I felt nothing sometimes. Being too sensitive and emotional is the pits. I need to calm down, take a deep breath, do my daily Calm meditation, make a reasonable plan and be gentle and compassionate with myself. Beating myself up for this won't help anything. Just remain calm...take deep breaths.. I had posted this on the anxiety forum but felt I wasn't being honest. I'll get over it.
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