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Originally Posted by Miss Laura
Thank you guys,
I kinda feel a bit stupid as I didn't really know him. I knew of him as he was in my class and I spoke to him whenever I saw him in class which wasn't much. I am just more in shock than anything else. He wasn't from Scotland and his family are coming up this week.
I told my parents and I just wanted them to ask if I was alright but they didn't. Don't think they understand how that affects me. I feel so selfish for thinking of myself when he was hurting so much.
He is the first person I know of that has killed himself....
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Sorry for the loss of your acquaintance, Miss Laura. Only he knows why he made the decision to end his life. Maybe in his mind, it was the best option.
It sounds like your parents aren't very emotionally supportive of how his death has effected you. That's more about how they feel towards the subject of suicide, than it is about how they feel about you. Western society in general, tends to label suicide as a selfish, shameful act, which I think is totally wrong.
Don't feel selfish for thinking of yourself. It's how you're processing his death which I think is totally normal.
I lost a friend to suicide in college, and three friends of mine lost children and siblings to suicide. If it helps you to process it with a counselor better, then I recommend setting up an appointment with one. I did that in college, after my friend ended his life. It really helped me process his death, to talk about my feelings around suicide, and the guilt I felt about not being able to prevent my friend from taking his own life. It helped me reach the conclusion, that we can't force anyone to do anything no matter how good our intentions are.