Thanks Inner and Ceilpur,

I guess my folks just don't get it cause I don't tell them when I have been suicidal. I am just glad I have survived as I now know how I can not leave this planet without a cause (ie illness). If I ever get this low I am going to talk to someone.... if I can. I know this is sometimes not even in the top 3 things to do if in a suicidal mind but I can not leave this planet. My Twin would be heartbroken. She was asking if I was okay when I told her