I'm new to this and was convinced by my therapist to come on here to vent and find other people who may relate, understand, or even give advice. I was first diagnosed with depression and anxiety when i first went for help. Now, a couple months later, I've beem diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and it made alot of sense then. I don't know which type yet and won't know until the 20th when i have my first psychiatry appt.

It was hard to accept at first, because it's one thing to joke about it but another thing to actually be diagnosed. I'm coming to true acceptance now, I feel that it's just me, it's always been me. But I'm feeling a bit alone... No one to really talk to about it.

I've tried the whole support system thing, just didn't go like i thought. My family is there for me and they listen but it never feels like enough. My friends, well some know, but i don't want them to feel like they are responsible for me or my unpredictable actions. So, i think I've been distant from them. My boyfriend, the one person i thought would understand, who i thought would be my biggest supporter of all, well he's not. I honestly don't think he's very interested in learning or understanding it. He's said both when diagnosed with depression/anxiety and now with bipolar disorder, 'There's Nothing wrong with you' and okay i accept that but that's just his excuse to justify being insensitive (at least what i believe).

I'm open with making new friends, when not depressed, i laugh and smile ALOT. So please feel free to reply, support, advise, hug, or just say hi.! Thanks in advance.!