What a horrific couple of weeks at work. Anxiety/Stress is ruling my life!!!!!!!!! I'm exhausted. I just want to sleep a lot.

I see T tomorrow. I emailed him. He did not email back.

Whatever. I don't care. I guess I'm now at the point where I don't give a @#$@# about him because I am so angry. Never thought it would happen. I am overstressed, anxiety-ridden, still devastated!

So, This is as good as my life is going to get. Constantly pushing uphill. All this @#$@## @#$%!! Welcome to me. Life sucks and will continue to do so. There is no light at the end of the tunnel for me. There is nothing but the same toruturous life. I'm sure I deserve to be torutured like this or surely somebody else would have intervened.