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Old Jun 02, 2017, 10:17 PM
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I just remembered something else and it really irritated me, so I'm just going to vent it here.

The other day we were just starting our department team meeting. And someone was talking about the new shoes that I bought that I wore to an event the previous weekend. And they are all FB friends with me, so they knew that they were my reward for losing ten pounds. So when our supervisor asked what we were talking about, I explained that I had rewarded myself for losing 10lbs by buying these new shoes. And I already my eye on another pair when I hit my next goal. And then she said "Oh, I don't have to wait to reward myself to buy shoes. I just buy them when I want." Kind of snobby-like...

I'm not sure if that was a knock on my weight and trying to lose weight or if that was a knock on the fact that she makes like triple what I do in salary...but, um, it really felt like an insult to me. I mean, I don't have to wait to buy shoes either, I could just go buy the next pair I want, but I'm making myself earn them as rewards to make my goals. I dunno, it really felt like a put down. Like a "I'm better than you." And considering how often she likes to remind me that she's a better person than me, I don't think I'm wrong.

Okay, rant over.

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Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia.

Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien

Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less...