LT,

Your concerns are valid, and you are ABSOLUTELY right that if a therapist is making you feel worse, maybe you ought to look elsewhere. My struggle is usually that I make excuses or hope for the best or somehow idealize them for way too long. If that's the case here, I'm so glad!

I felt like I needed to note here, though, that as I read through your post, for some reason it struck me with memories of my bipolar depressive episodes when suddenly my perception changes. My husband or my journals are usually where I come across something and realize - oh, I wasn't feeling like this three weeks ago.... Then I know that it's not really real. I've even had times where I felt like you wrote above with my current therapist - January and February this year - that were really bad and every week I considered quitting therapy with him. My husband and mom reminded me how well he knows me, how much he's helped, etc. As the episode continued, the things my mind was telling me also changed. With your suspicions of bipolar and that you've sounded down the last few days or week, and then this post struck me so strongly, I'm concerned at how you are being affected. That said, I know you will be careful about making big decisions like leaving T right now without giving it at least a couple weeks.