I'm in the same boat as ACrystalGem. Good means bad will follow.

I do not feel a connect to any good memories even though I know they did/do exist. I am sacred of okay, so when something good happened/happens, I freak out and wait for another disaster to hit again. In my reality okay/good is a scary lie covering up some awful whatever that is just behind it.

Plus, the stuff I did as a child, my job and all, was not really too live life as a functional host type person. So it stands to reason due to that as well that I would not know a lot about okay times.

On a more positive note... over the past few months I have been doing some memory/emotion type processing work. In the mess of this, I discovered someone in my system lived some of those years and does have some good memories. While it shook me a bit to realize someone else I had no awareness of was around back then (really did think I knew who lived those years) I am glad someone in here with me has some good stuff they connect to. I wonder if we have a child in here somewhere who has similar things in regards to early childhood. That would be cool.

-V