I'm sorry this happened to you. And I'm sorry you got this reaction.

You might want to check if RAINN has some resources that can help you. At the very least you can chat with a trained volunteer through the website, they might have more ideas.

Also here on PC are two forums that might be of help to you: namely the Post-Traumatic Stress forum (forums.psychcentral.com/post-traumatic-stress/) and the Survivors of Abuse forum (http://forums.psychcentral.com/survivors-abuse/). Feel free to post wherever you feel most comfortable.

You're not alone.