I did well at school but became unwell at 18 so all I have had is revolving door, minimum wage slave driven jobs where I have been treated not the best.
So I have no real world skills. I haven't lived my life, been on drunken holidays with friends. Just a failed seven year relationship that destroyed my self worth. I never made new long lasting friends in my jobs or college courses while with that person.

I am not good at anything anymore. My people skills have never been flexed so I am a nervous wreck. I feel like I am past it at 29, washed up. I will not do a degree, because I will miss out on uni life cause I am world weary and grown up. So I need a job where I can be trained.

Plus I still live where I grew up and I have done too many stupid things, that no respectable employer could overlook as their reputation is on the line too.

I have a pal that is urging me to use my brain. But all I know is everything I cannot do - nursing No, teaching No, police force No, social work No, anything practical like a trade NO, . I feel like giving up once and for all.

At work on Friday I lost the rag, at a young co-worker who is a lovely lad, and pissed off another in the last hour. I have only been there two weeks and I have all ready flew off the handle. Hopefully it will be overlooked but I know for a fact it will be gossip all ready - moody s%^t, stuck up, telling someone how to do the job when she's useless at it herself....