The past two weeks have been like an emotional roller coaster. About 8 or 9 days ago I had a mini melt down at work because one of my residents has been driving my patients to the point where it got to be too much. I went to my boss but because this resident’s own mental health problems there really is not much that could be done. My boss and several of my co-workers have been talking about me behind my back saying things like “why is he like this?” and pretty much making me feel even worse about how I’m crazy.
Flash forward to this week and things have not improved. Nearly everyday I’ve been so upset or angry ive started to shake. It’s reached the point where I feel that I have become a ticking time bomb liable to explode in either a fit of rage or that I’m going to just breakdown and become a nervous wreck and hysterically cry.
I just wish this could stop and I could feel stable for a change.