i've been consciously aware of my "problems" since i was 23...so for 17 years now. been in therapy for 17 years and on meds for the same amount of time. used to be just paxil and klonopin but last year low doses of risperdal and neurontin were added to the mix. when my anxiety is really bad i fragment so it feels like i'm all compartmentalized inside. it's a dissociative disorder i developed when i was young to deal with some family trauma that went on for many years. now i just live with it going on and off to varying degrees just because it's hard to stop doing it. doesn't even feel like i have conscious control over why and when i do it. dissociating leaves me feeling very disconnected and thus the apathy and depression. the anxiety has been around for as long as i can remember.

how did the lamictal work? i heard it can be very effective.

so what's your story!?