All I can say is I tried. Did flowers, wrote her a card, tried to spend time with her and I still get provoked. So basically what went down last night is that si put the kids down for bed and we sat in the living room on seperate couches (Always that way). Every time I would look over at her she would say "Stop looking at me". Then she would follow it up with a smart comment. Then we ended up talking about when I was deployed and got some things out that was on my mind. She then sarcastically said "Yeah I ****ed him, it's just sex" and other stupid comments to provoke me. She said he came around, cooked for my family and this and that. She basically said he was there while I was gone and done things I didn't. So having to hear hear all of that was hard and touch. She said she said the stuff about sex was messing around with me but I feel there is truth behind it. Like who would say that to a person they are "Married" too.

Then when I texted her today to revisit the conversation, she said she never said any of that. She doesn't want me to have text proof. So you guys tell me what i should think. I just don't understand why she wants me around. She should have just divorced me and moved on with her life. She is making it more clear that maybe I should follow through with a divorce because I don't think I will ever be loved like a wife should love a husband, which is supposed to be unconditional love. I just don't want to be taken to the bank