It sounds to me more like you would benefit from T for trauma, rape and others forms of abuse. Meds are obviousy not working for you.

Meds have helped me a lot. But T has helped me so much more. The T gave me coping mechanisms and ways to calm myself. She made sure others knew what to do for me in the case it appeared I was "Going crazy." The T and I came up with a plan of what others should know and what to do for me. We sent letters to Dr's and dentists, and any one else involved in my care so that if I came "unglued" they would know why and what to do or not do.

We used EMDR techniques to shut thoughts off and self soothe, music, animals, silly putty, the smell of roses. We also talked about what to avoid. I can't write those at the moment. It is to triggering for me to say them, and may even be triggering to others if I wrote it. Stupid stuff, but stuff that bother me nonetheless.

I hope you can find peace and resolve soon, weather threw meds or counseling or both.