oh yea, I also forgot to mention how confused one can get when mother shoplifts and then as a child, you feel it might be OK to try it just once, but she catches you-- YOU then are the awful bad horrible child. and know you will NEVER do that ever again and you don't, and are so so sorry. ....

she is so restless.... nervous..... moving constantly.....going out....having friends over in which her children are the subject of ridicule and jokes..... her constant "movement" churns and disturbs my opposing calm quiet sea.

I struggle to feel comfortable with people and find I don't do so well when others "joke" with me.

mandy