I feel exactly like you seesaw..insecure and not the "hottie" I once was...it gets worse with age. It seems shallow but it really does impact our lives..shallow or not.

The note is also something I would have done. And I guess your depression also didn't allow you to "cave" for brunch today.

Don't feel guilty..you haven't seen the guy in forever...it was kind of a spur of the moment thing for him to ask you to meet him and when you have depression and fatigue..spur of the moments don't work that well.

I also understand pushing thru getting the "chores" done to go back into relax mode as much as we can...I don't work and I don't know how you do....and even thou I don't work I struggle with these feelings you have on a daily basis and people that want me to be around really thing I don't "like them". And they don't understand that as you said...the body just won't cooperate...in my case..the mind won't either.

I feel very selfish at times..but maybe if we keep doing the things to take care of ourselves and not feel guilty about it...we will get better someday. But, I too feel like people are pulling me to do things all the time that I DONT want to do.

I totally understand how you feel...and did he answer your note?