This is what makes this so faky feeling.

We remember things (events) if it has a big impact to the system...like it matters to all of us...we just know it's important.

But to remember what an Other said or did is very hard if at all possible. Like it would only be a distant fragment of a memory that feels like it is someone elses. It also feels sickening like I was invading their space or boundaries....makes me nauseas.