So I'm having trouble staying focused because of some upsetting events.

I have been in school the past 3 months on a retraining program. It was government funded, meaning some of us in the class had come from tough backgrounds.

Part of our class included a practicum, I reached out at got a spot in the place I wanted, which is an awesome government job. Not only did I get a spot for me, but 5 of my classmates got positions as well. As it turns out, I was doing my practicum somewhere with a fellow classmate, where both of us did extremely well, we had a good experience, learned a lot, got to use some of the workers as references, had a very high practicum review score, and even had a pizza party for us at the end they were so happy with us.

Sounds all good? Well along comes the news that I have been invited for a job interview, but she hasn't yet. Maybe she will soon, I am still taking this hard though.

I only know a bit about her past, but I definitely know what it's like to go through a rough spot in life, and lose all your self esteem, and how hard it is to get out of that hole. I saw how hard she worked, how her confidence grew, and she was starting to believe in herself again. I believed in her right from the start, she just needed some support. When I was out of my element trying to help her, I went to our program director to see where she could get more professional assistance. Some of the time, it was tough since English is not her first language.

I'm very upset, but I have to get ready for my interview coming up this week. I know for me, even if I don't get that specific job, the school and practicum has been an overwhelming success. If I mess up in the interview, it's all on me. I'm ok with that. I have confidence that I will get employed there or somewhere similar though.

Here is someone with a language barrier and trying to dig herself out of a big hole. I know how nice she is to be around and how much she tries, she deserves a chance. She is just as capable of doing the job as I am, I've seen it. I feel like I've let her down. I don't know how to tell her to keep going, to not go back to where she was at the start of the class.

Like I said, I'm crushed, but need to somehow keep going.