Okay, so while I know that my medication manager thinks this is Complex-PTSD, and I agree with her, I kind of hate that I reacted to my traumatic experiences. I know I can't help it, but I feel that way. Basically one time I was pushed down a flight of stairs (granite/marble kind of stairs) and I did manage to grab the railing but... it scared me. The other thing was being thrown across a cabin by another girl my age. Both of these incidences happened when I was 12 years old. I'm almost 33 now and I can't stand people touching or grabbing my back or my neck. I even get anxious when someone's behind me and I can't see what they're doing.

But yeah, I feel guilty for feeling the way I do. I know other people have had more traumatic experiences than I did, but I guess others feel the same way to.. Do any of you all feel that way sometimes?