I plan to stay on my meds for a year while building coping techniques. Long term use of these meds has terrible consequences on the mind and body. Untreated bipolar has terrible consequences so it's just st a crapppy position to be in. I am so terrified of becoming delusional again it's consumed my whole life. Unless a person has been delusional, where everyone they love has turned against them and they are utterly alone in this terrifying world, they simply don't understand. I truly believe that taking antipsychotics caused my paranoia to turn into full blown delusions. I'm so confused and scared on this topic. I want to be med free so bad, these meds make me feel so sick. I just want to be well and if taking these medications will help I must do it for now. Maybe you can start a coping without meds thread. I've yet to find any coping strategies which will help me when I'm in full scale delusion mode but that doesn't mean they don't exsist, it just means I haven't found them yet. I'm thinking of making myself a recording....kinda like Adam Sandler did for Drew Barrymore in 50 first dates.