I am in a relationship with a woman that I love very much. In my past I used to view porn on a very regular basis....some people would probably even say too much. Once I met her I stopped because I knew that porn was something she did not like and she was very opposed to it. I have been with her for about 2 years and last week I found myself visiting an old website that I used to view and looking at porn.

I did not enjoy it and I was not aroused by it...but I have no clue why after 2 years of not viewing it I did again. I don't think I had the intention of masturbating to it but I honestly do not know why I even looked. This is something that she hates and I know that.

She found it in my history before I had worked up the courage enough to tell her what I had done. I do not find it appealing anymore but I am still troubled by why I looked at it again in the first place.

Does anybody have any thoughts on why I might have done that...because I honestly do not have an answer and that scares me.