I'm a Christian, and pray most mornings & nights. I've always prayed as Outside Me - the person I think of as the real me, but a few weeks ago I started noticing something. One of my alters, Forest Jacq wanted to speak up. At first I thought it was disrespectful to God - but the real reason was that I didn't 100% believe my alters can make sense to anyone but me. After pushing her down for a while, Forest Jacq slid into taking over my prayers last night. I still felt a bit strange about it, but I know God loves all of me, so he hopefully won't be negative about it. It has also helped me to accept that my alters are real to others & not just me. Even though I've discussed things on here before, I still sometimes feel like I'm making it all up - denial is very attractive when the truth of what happened to me is so horrible. So I wanted to share this. I'm amazed at the progress I've made with DID since coming on here - it's the only place on or offline where I can talk about it. Thanks for reading.